About seven ago months I answered one of those Tell the Truth questionnaires on Facebook. One of the questions asked “How do you feel about your life right now? I replied “bland ~ ready for the next level ~ some new stuff”.
Then, Oprah spoke about the opportunity to host your own TV show, which I later learned was the opportunity to own your own show. When she began talking I sat up in my bed and knew instantly that this was something I could do!! However, there were a couple problems; I didn’t know what type of show I wanted to host; this was well outside of my comfort zone; and there was an element of apprehension, fear, doubt, and nervousness.
The doubt and nervousness was somewhat expected in my mind due to the newness of this venture. I’ve never aspired to be a talk show host. This was not a hobby, nor was hosting identified as a skill I should pursue based on personality traits.
Despite my feelings of anxiety, I pursued what I felt was for me… I started by telling my family the same day I saw the advertisement on Oprah. They took the news fairly well. Their first question was “What kind of show do you want?” Of course I said, “I have no idea.” I told them I would need to explore ideas for my audition tape. I think they wanted to gage how serious I was before committing 100 percent. I went home and prayed.
I knew this idea was given to me, but I needed confirmation and guidance. A few days later I dreamt about being a broadcast news anchor for my own show. In my dream I saw the production crew, staff, the set, etc. So, I created an audition tape based on being a news anchor, uploaded my video, and began my marketing campaign to acquire votes. I shared with friends and other family members that I was auditioning for the contest. I realized slowly that maybe this idea wasn’t as far fetched as I originally thought. Each person I told was very supportive and surprisingly told me that they easily saw me working in this role…Go Figure!! On a daily basis I began to think about potential production company names and show production concepts. I really saw myself moving to Los Angeles.
I thought the feelings of doubt and anxiety was normal because this venture was new. What I realized is that these feelings were not normal. I had lost a measure of confidence. This competition was a catalyst that re-emerged the confident, well-versed, adventurous, capable person! It helped me to remember that it was not normal to have negative thoughts about my capabilities when I have the necessary skills and aptitude.
At the end of my audition tape I thanked Oprah for the opportunity and indicated that now I’m beginning to dream bigger dreams.
I am thankful that Oprah was used as a vessel, but I am most thankful that I was open for the lesson of a lifetime. I do not know what my future holds, but most importantly, I will not allow external circumstances or other people to determine my self-worth. I believe with every fiber of my being and embrace the belief that I have been fearfully and wonderfully made and I can do ALL things…!! I am ready for my next adventure, whether in human resources, some form of media broadcast, or public relations… who knows!!! The great thing is…there are no limitations on my life!!!
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